We recently uprooted from the rolling hills of Tennessee and began to plant new roots in South Florida not even 3 weeks ago. Emotions had already been high yesterday as I dropped my husband off for a business trip to Italy, on this the 19th day in the home we’re renting. I was missing a familiar life and routine, as well as longing to be establishing our potential forever home here on Earth, rather than honing my gecko-swatting skills in a home that is not our own.
Sleeping has been hit-or-miss for both of us here. I can count on one or two fingers the number of restful nights of sleep I’ve gotten here so far, not entirely sure why, but last night was no exception. As I laid down to sleep, mind somewhat racing, replaying details of church conversations just an hour before, and thoughts of my husband’s trans-Atlantic flight, I was hyper-aware that it was teeing up to be another restless night. Continue reading
I have slowly, often fraught with resistance, learned that I’m not in control and I don’t have it all figured out. This realization would have served me well decades ago, but better to discover in decade 5 of life than much later! I don’t have it all figured out, I don’t have the best plan in mind, and I must let go of control and rely on the only One that does. Continue reading
It’s that sneaky, somewhat subtle or even unnoticeable feeling that can easily be ignored, yet gone unchecked it can ruin relationships, and at the very least fuel frustration for those on the receiving end. Ladies, it’s our curse from the very creation of the human race. Control. Continue reading
As the 2006 spring break approached for our family of 5, we were planning a family trip to Florida: driving 1400 miles each way, eating as many meals in the borrowed RV as possible to save money, limiting our packed clothes to just the necessities to conserve storage space…it was a job only I could do (though do right is what I was really thinking), but was it? God said “Guess again” in this prideful moment of control. It’s been a lesson from which I glean wisdom to this day. Continue reading